A long way gone ch 11-12

so far ch 12 has been the most disturbing scene in the whole book. It is just horrible how Ishmael gs hope that he is going to see his parents. But once he gets there the rebels come, and of course the gunfire starts and they completely destroy the village where his family is staying. The boys of course lose hope and start blaming each other for it.They end up throwing punches and injure each other which is pointless because they are not going to get anywhere with fighting each other. In ch 12 i was scared for Ishmael was taken to the next camp. It was actually a good thing for him because he got food,water, and shelter. This is true until the village is in a war with the rebels and the chief tells everyone to join the war or leave the village and most likely die. So I can see why Ishmael would join because he has nothing else to live for because he has no more family anymore, and why not get revenge on the people that took that away from him.